Remember when Star*bucks used to have 'The Way I See It' cups? Quotations and/or anecdotes from various people about various things? I miss those cups!! I used to get excited about the prolific thought I would have as I sipped my coffee. LOL Okay, that sounds a bit dramatic but I did have inspiration at times from reading them. I figured one day, I would get quoted on one! :) Actually, side note here, I did find out that someone who used to read my old blog, actually quoted me! So I must be well on my way to being one of the great commentators of our time....yeah, right...LOL.

Anyway, as you've noticed, I seek out sayings. As much as I feel compelled to write because it helps me sort my thoughts, sometimes someone else's words say things much more eloquently than I ever can. And then from there, I find more things to talk about! :) I have to laugh because the other morning, I was having a discussion with son #1. He was getting upset with me and started crying. I asked him what the tears were for. He didn't say anything. I kept talking. Asked another question. Waited. Asked another question and then he finally said that he couldn't answer because I was talking too much! I internally wanted to bust out laughing but I had to stay in that moment with him and let him finish. But truly, inside, I was tickled by the comment. His dad used to comment about how quiet I was when we first started dating. And then now, I apparently can't stop talking! LOL Probably not amusing to you, but it's very funny and ironic to me because I really don't like to talk much. I write well but I don't like to talk.

But I don't want my sons to be that way. Maybe for them, I try harder. Apparently this morning, I tried too much and I should have stopped but next time I know. LOL, I'm still giggling. Part of me thinks I should be offended but it's funny. "While we try to teach our children all about life, our children teach us what life is all about." And that is exactly what little man did this morning. Being a mother is humbling, many times over.

"It is not until you become a mother that your judgment slowly turns into compassion and understanding." -Erma Bombeck. Please note the word slowly in that quote. LOL I try everyday to have a little more patience than I had yesterday. Some days I make it and some days I don't. Some days I cry harder. I still feel residual guilt for getting sick. As resilient as my children are, I have moments where I blame myself for not being there as a mother, for changing the time when they should have been the focus of everyone's attention instead of me, for just not being able to hold and comfort them when they needed it.

And so to tie this all in with how I began (because I went on my usual tangent), I miss those Star*bucks cups because it would sometimes make me feel better about not being the supermom that I thought I was supposed to be. As I watch my girlfriends and I go through this motherhood realm, it amazes me how much we really do try to be invincible for our families. And only, rarely, do we ever give ourselves enough slack to realize that we don't have to be that.

So I've started having Star*bucks moments -with my husband, family and friends. Because the way I see it is this: "Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us most. We ask ourselves, 'Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, and famous?' Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that people won't feel insecure around you. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in all of us. And when we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people mission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others." --Maryanne Williamson. If I don't have moments with those that I love to share that we truly are on the path we're supposed to be, what moments do I actually have?