God is truly talking to me today!!  The messages are about letting go and understanding I don't have control and I need to stop fighting that.  Faith and trusting in Him.  My Message From God today was:  On this day of your life, Cristina, we believe God wants you to know ... that it's time you let go.  Yes, of course, you want to control so everything happens in just the way you want it. But at the end of the day, we control nothing, - it's all in God's hands, - has always been, and will always be. So, do what you can, and then let go, and let God handle the rest.

My message on the Prescriptions for Hope with Dr. Kenya radio program today talked about more in that realm.  The delays that we think are occurring are just moments in time when God is setting up our circumstance that He wants us to have.  In these moments, our faith in Him must supercede those moments of panic and feelings of abandonment.  The doubts of what we thought was supposed to be, or the feelings of "missing our moment" are moments when faith truly must be exercised.  I saw a wall hanging over the weekend that said this "Faith - When you come to the edge of all the light you have known and are about to step out into the darkness, faith is knowing one of two things will happen...there will be something to stand on or you will be taught how to fly."  You know my post from January 29 has continued to bother (I'm not sure if that's the word I want to use but it has just lingered in my mind for a bit) me because the emotions I think I sent out was that I lacked faith and that wasn't what I wanted to prevail.  Seeing this quote finally helped me to understand what I was trying to share.  See, He shows us, if we are willing to listen and see, what we need to know, even in times when we were unprepared.

The message I received when I opened a reply to an email was I believe a piece of a poem from a German poet "Have patience with everything unresolved in your heart and try to love the questions themselves, as if they were locked rooms, or books written in a very foreign language.  Don't search for the answers, which could not be given to you now, because you would not be able to live them.  And the point is to live everything.  Live the questions now.  Perhaps then, someday far in the future, you will gradually, without even noticing it, live your way into the answer." --Rainer Maria Rilke.  This was actually a response to my supervisor asking me to write an essay about my dream job.  I had many difficulties in writing it and I felt that I still had no answer by the time I turned it in.  And yet, this response which was just a portion of what she shared with me, I found comforting because I felt vulnerable when I turned in my writing because it was more personal than I ever care to be in relation to work and because it just reiterated that there are so many things that I cannot control, including someone else's response to me. 

Oh, the messages are abound!  Yes, coming in 12 megapixels and full color today!  I can't even deny not hearing, seeing or knowing.  Wow.  Days like this give me strength to move forward...to believe that as long as I trust in Him to carry me, I don't have to worry about much else.  I heard it the other week - "If you're going to pray, don't worry.  If you're going to worry, don't pray."  Enough said, don't you think?