I haven't been around...I know.  Life has been busy.  Hectic.  Chaotic.  Especially at work.  Can I tell you that I don't like to be a mean person?  I can be a mean person, but I don't like to be.  I think that most people would feel the same way.  However, as someone who manages and supervises others, I have to do what's best for the whole, which is not necessarily the best for the individual and that causes a lot of conflict. 

My role of helping others and gets me to the point where I want to do things that will essentially help them - give them a chance, maybe another one, provide resources, etc.  But there's a fine line between that and enabling them by giving too much support that they can't do something themselves.  So many roles!!  Aughhh!  Why I can't I just be surrounded by competency, quality and commitment?!  What's with all this other stuff?

I'm laughing at myself.  I know, I just went on a mini-tyraid.  What do you expect?  LOL  Funny thing about people is that I get that they perceive me as someone who is this nice, passive, quiet person, etc. etc.  But really?  I'm not.  People can attest that I'm stubborn, hardheaded and if you piss me off, you're pretty much done.  Am I being deceptive?  No.  People just want to assume these things based upon looking at me.  What's a 5'1" Filipino lady going to do?  I will break it down and mess you up if I don't get the results that I need for my group.  I have low tolerance, can you tell?