I'm a people watcher. Always have been and always will be. That probably has a lot to do with the fact that I'm a therapist. But don't take that the wrong way. I am a therapist when I'm supposed to be a therapist. I learned a long time ago not to put people 'on the couch' when they didn't make an appointment with my credentials. I think it's easy and quite truthful for me to say that when I'm not trying to be a therapist, I truly do miss various cues because I'm too caught up in my own things to notice. LOL I think that people give me too much credit for 'knowing' things.

One of the things that has changed about me AC is that I'm much more blunt about things. Sometimes I lack all sense of tactfulness. I try to make sure that doesn't happen too often but it does. I have remorse but strangely, not as much as I think I'm supposed to. All my life, I spent biting my tongue about things. I don't regret some of those times, but some of them I do. When I cared enough, I stood my ground, but for many times, much more than I care to admit, I let things happen.

But moreso than not, people get ticked off by what I say, or maybe moreso, how I say it.  I'm not trying to imply I'm all-knowing, I'm just sharing my personal opinion.  What's wrong with that?  I have heard from people that I can be too opinionated.  I laugh at that only because it's really rare that I even share my opinion.  And honestly, how does my opinion even weigh that much?  I'm only one person.  I'm only me.  Whether you get disappointed or mad at what I say, it's your choice to be that way, isn't it?  Just like it's my choice to either let things get to me or to just keep on moving.  But even my choices seem to imply that I could possibly not care once again.  (((sigh))) 

I learned that time is precious.  I get to choose how my days run, how I carry myself and the things that I do.  I don't get to do everything I should do, am supposed to do, or even want to do, but I do what I can.  I don't always make the right decision, I don't always make the wrong one either.  Sometimes I don't realize how impactive I can be, but sometimes I know how impactive I was.  I guess as I'm typing all this, it's all really a toss-up.  That control thing?  Non-existent, but if it makes us feel better to think we have some, I guess that's what we use to get by.