I'm going to be published. One day. About something. I have to, don't you think? I told myself that even if I did not author it by myself, I want to see my name attached to something that has been published. Whether it's something personal like a memoir or related to my trade as a counselor and director. It will happen.

But it requires starting somewhere. I have many starts, but not much beyond that. What now? I actually told myself that as far as it's related to work, I had to do something of substance this year. I already submitted a proposal to present at a conference in March. I was accepted. But I want to say I've published something, to see my name in black and white. So what do I write about? And how do I make it sound enlightening and educationally based? I'm making myself giggle. Okay, so maybe I'm not in the right mind frame at this very moment. But I will do it. And since I've put it out here, I can't really go back on it because now you're expecting me to actually have a post that says I did it.

And all this leads me to the whole notion of accountability. I had a conversation with a friend. She and I were talking about the gym. She said we could go together. I started to laugh. As my husband can attest, I don't work well together in that realm. It's just something difficult. If I do it, I want to go there, do what I have to do and be done. No offense to anyone but that's how I function. Although being accountable to someone could potentially push me in the beginning to do it, I don't know if it's enough to keep me there. Lots of things go wary on my end. What would be "normal" for some truly isn't for me. I have to have the motivation and incentive for myself, not because of the other person. Does that make sense? Like this whole notion of writing...I've known for years that it's something that I should do but it's taken me those years to work it out in my head that it truly is something worthwhile for me.

"You are the only person on earth who can use your ability." -Zig Ziglar. Sounds so superhero-ish and yet it is true. Each of our experiences creates opportunities within us to be better at something than we were before. After all, through this whole blogging thing, I have become a better person at opening up....and if you know me well, THAT is quite a monumental feat.