I heard a song today that lifted me out of my funk momentarily...

I lost my keys in the great unknown
And call me please 'Cuz I can't find my phone

This is the stuff that drives me crazy
This is the stuff that's getting to me lately
In the middle of my little mess
I forget how big I'm blessed
This is the stuff that gets under my skin
But I gotta trust You know exactly what You're doing
It might not be what I would choose
But this is the stuff You use

45 in a 35
Sirens and fines while I'm running behind
Whoa

This is the stuff that drives me crazy
This is the stuff that's getting to me lately
In the middle of my little mess
I forget how big I'm blessed
This is the stuff that gets under my skin
But I gotta trust You know exactly what You're doing
It might not be what I would choose
But this is the stuff You use

So break me of impatience
Conquer my frustrations
I've got a new appreciation
It's not the end of the world
Oh Oh Oh

This is the stuff that drives me crazy
This is the stuff
Someone save me
In the middle of my little mess
I forget how big I'm blessed
This is the stuff that gets under my skin
And I've gotta trust You know exactly what You're doing
It might not be what I would choose
But this is the stuff You use

Oh Oh Oh Oh
This is the stuff You use

-Francesca Battistelli




Truth.  

These past few days have proven to be very interesting...as you know I believe that coincidence is nothing more than recognized calculations of events that require someone to notice their relatedness.  The events of the past few days have a connection...

On Sunday, we dropped off the boys to their respective Sunday school classrooms.  The sermon was about prayer and how powerful it can be.  The three principles of prayer that were shared were:

1. Prayer does not automatically spare us from great trials (Acts 12:1-4).
2. Prayer delivers us from impossible situations (Acts 12:5-10).
3. God's answers are often greater than what we can ask or imagine (Acts 12:11-17).

I can testify that my cancer experience exhibited all three of those principles.  Flat out.  No questions.  In my current state, at this very moment, I can still say that those principles are in effect for I continue to have trials (i.e. the car accident) but I walked away unscratched from it.  The third one...that's the tricky one....

Well, as I was listening to this sermon, the pastor talks about his personal experience where he and his wife were told that they would not have children.  That it was impossible.  Prayers later found her telling him that she thought she was pregnant.  Wow.  She was.  They went through another trial where she was rushed to the hospital.  Thirty years later, their son is still doing well.  Isn't that an amazing story?  

We pick up the boys.  We are walking and S looks at me and says that the teacher had pulled him over and told him that A had been asking questions about God.  She answered those questions and then asked him if he accepted Jesus as his Saviour.  He said yes.  Wow.  I was not expecting that so soon.  Very incredible to learn that!  I'm still wondering how to proceed with that...

Then last night, we were talking at the kitchen table.  And A asks why little man had to go to heaven.  OMG! I was floored.  S did a great job explaining how God sometimes calls us home and because little man wasn't feeling good, God let him come home.  Very simple and yet to the point.  I started to cry, of course.  And then he said that he remembers looking at him lying there and then when he looked back, it was like he disappeared....S and I interpreted that as A seeing/feeling the spirit having left the body.  Wow, right?  Truly I was amazed that we were having this conversation.

Today, I was in a meeting, met a woman who I had met previously.  I had met her sister-in-law before I had E last fall.  She said that her sister wasn't working currently as the husband was fighting another battle with cancer.  He was originally diagnosed with lung cancer and had gone into remission.  Although they had been checking him, they only checked his lungs.  A second cancer had ensued and now he was stage 4 and headed to his third chemo session tomorrow.  I was floored again with this information.  I am well aware of the possibility of another cancer popping up.  She said to make sure I was checked all over, which I pretty much am because I was stage 4 when it all happened.  I trust my doctors and know that I'm well watched.  But yes, that possibility of another cancer popping up is always in the back of my mind, as well as all the side effects that the chemo caused.

Then, at dinner today, S says he talked with a guy that was diagnosed with the same thing I had and who was very helpful when I was going through treatment.  I hadn't talked to him since treatment and so hearing his name today really threw me considering all that I just shared with you.  

Needless to say, I'm on information/conversation overload!  Not sure what will come at me tomorrow...I'm just grateful for the blessings of today.  If these incidents were reminders, trust me, I get it.  If these incidents are warnings, then bring it, because I believe in greater things and know that greater things have yet to come.