National Cancer Survivor's Day 2011...I've made it to another one.  I'm not going to any survivor events today.  I'm actually quite sad right now.  Realizing what today is and having been part of a fundraiser for Marcellus' Warriors 3 yesterday makes this day a bittersweet one.

I continue to be grateful everyday of the blessing of having the opportunity to wake up and be part of this life with family and friends.  Three and a half years ago.  Can you believe it?  Sometimes I can't.  Last week someone pointed out my port scar..they started to ask what happened but then stopped when they realized what it was.  For a few seconds, there was this silence between us.  The funny thing about the silence in those few minutes is that up until that silence, I wasn't considered a survivor by that person.  I was just me.  And that was good.  Because honestly?  I would like to think I'm pretty normal despite everything else.  But I don't run from my survivorship.  Sometimes I wish I could though.  I still struggle with the fact that I have survived.  It is hard.  I have no words to explain why, but it is.

On a pretty regular basis, people ask how I am and encourage me to make sure my health continues to be strong.  On a pretty regular basis, I am reminded that it is important to not be so stressed out.  On a pretty regular basis, I realize I am survivor and all the things that come with that...

Make everyday count..LIVE, LAUGH and LOVE STRONG!!