Time ticks on.  Waiting in the waiting room.  Checked in an hour earlier than my appointment, but already told that it wouldn't make a difference to see the doctor.  LOL  Go figure.  I could be late and still be on time to see him, that's how busy he is.  They've changed the waiting room.  The pediatric check-in is now on the same end the adult check-in is at.  That's hard.  Lots of kids today.  I hear the crying, the sad faces.

But outside of that, I enjoy my time here in this city.  Everytime I come back, I find myself smiling, looking at simple things like the trees and feeling a sense of peace in the surrounding.  Weird, eh?  If I could move here, I really would.  It really is a dynamic town.  Depending on what time I get out of here, I will be making a stop for some dessert...my treat to myself.  LOL  Yes, I have started to believe in the notion of treating oneself...it's necessary and vital.  :)

Fifteen weeks today.  Saw the OB and everything is good.  His assistant scared me for a second as she couldn't find the heartbeat.  Time ticks very slowly at that point when I'm listening and not hearing a steady rhythm.  But in the end, she finds it and all is well.  He asked me if I had questions.  I had nothing for him.  And in turn, he had nothing for me either.  Third one is the charm.  LOL  He says I kind of know the routine by now.  He did bring up the fact that I delivered four weeks early the last time.  That's one week less than they like.  He started to talking to me about hormone shots that would commence at 17 weeks but said that he's not really going to push that.  He doesn't think I really need it.  I did explain to him how the last delivery happened.  He laughed and probably thinks it was a fluke that I knew when I was going to deliver.  Oh well.  I know what happened and maybe I was just in-tune with things then.  :)  He asked if I could just wait until 37 weeks this time. 

I'm tired.  I really need to stop.  Take a break.  Stop worrying...about work...about home...about the kids...about everything...just stop.  But there's not enough time in the day to take a break.  And moments when I've just lost all concentration, I still totally don't do anything productive like stopping.