I'm not scheduled for another visit to the Cancer Center.  Very odd to type that, let alone hearing it yesterday.  I'm supposed to call after I give birth, six months from now, to see where we stand and what to do next.  My safety net seems farther away, but this time the fear is not so overwhelming.  I'm okay with it.  And I will probably cherish not having to anticipate the visit for a bit. 

They say I look good and everything else looks fine.  That didn't stop me from getting a mani/pedi afterwards, but it did allow me to enjoy it a bit more.  :)  I guess now I can give myself a break, some time, to enjoy this baby that is on the way.  To enjoy my two boys and their rambuctious selves.  And to really enjoy this life that I am blessed to have.  I live in fear a lot of days - not just of the cancer, but so many other worries.  And I'm starting to realize that maybe it's really not worth all the emotional stress that I go through.  Truly, I can really say, I've battled cancer and I'm still here!  What more can really bring me to that point except that very point and who is to say when that would be and who is to say if that will ever occur so why not live life a little bit better than before, right?