What do you do when you see signs pointing you to a different direction? And by signs, I mean anything that is visual, conversational, tangible, anything. I was just looking at my dashboard here and realized I had several drafts going that I never finished. I didn't actually go view them because I'm not ready to deal with them but I wonder how often I run away from the signs.
You know I started blogging because it made things concrete for me. To see words in black and white and make it relatively permanent is a bold thing...it's a statement. And for me, that's so hard. I don't talk much because I can't commit...wait, let me change that, I don't want to commit to anything. LOL For instance, because it's hilarious and I have to share it, today my husband wanted me to try a new app. I'm for trying new things if it'll make our communication easier! :) So I told him I downloaded it my phone but he tells me to download it into my Chr*ome browser and register. Well, to register, I have to put it an email address and I couldn't decide which one to use!!!! LOL We chatted about it and he's dying laughing on the other end because I'm having this issue about which gmail email address to use and he calls me a "virtual hoarder"!!!! LMAO, truly, hilarious because I can be that! I have like 50 million email addresses so that no one person can find me but then it drives me crazy because I have so many!!!!
Okay, I just digressed from my original thought (yes, you know that it doesn't take much). Anyway, so signs that point me to another direction. These things that cause you to say "hhhmmmm" and stop to think. And mind you, I don't really believe in coincidences. Those are calculated experiences/situations that require you to address in some way. I say that and now feel compelled to rephrase my original question to this: what do you do when you see signs pointing you to a different direction that takes you out of that comfortable, yet annoying place you are currently at?
I usually run or turn around and pretend that where I'm at isn't so bad. Yeah, I hate to admit that, but that's what I do. But the funny thing is that God doesn't allow me to do without consequences. And, luckily for me, He gives me another chance, sometimes several to follow-through on what I need to do to face it and move forward.
I've been working at this current job since 2002. I had told myself I would only be here for five years. At five years, I was out there interviewing for other positions. And then I got sick and couldn't leave. I've recuperated, I'm in remission and now, I'm back on my mission to keep on moving. I have to. I have three kids under the age of 7 and I live an hour away. I shortchange my work days to take care of them and I'm sure that will catch up to me soon. But my priorities are my family first and believe it or not, I spend my off hours checking emails and doing work that is doable at home to make sure that I make up the time that I'm not sitting in my office. I have a cushy job and I could stay here for a while longer. But I would be miserable and unhappy. I'm close to that now. I want to see my kids, I want to be able to get to them in a timely manner. I want to be in a metropolitan area that allows me to feel refreshed instead of beaten down. And, to top it all off, the signs....and there have been plenty, coming in abundant directions, are just screaming at me that it's time to move on!
So...what do I do now? This is always my dilemma. What step do I take next? What am I supposed to be doing? Why do I start doubting myself? Why is that fear of failure always more prevalent than the idea of sweet success?
I want to go back to helping others. Via therapy, consulting, cheesecake baking, whatever. LOL I have to come to realize that when I'm presented with an opportunity to help people, I do it and I do it well. I have talked people through difficult situations, been a sounding board, helped conceptualize ideas....how do I do that on my terms? If you know how, tell me, share with me your knowledge. And that book that I want to publish? I still want to do that. Did I ever tell you I made that Faith, Hope & Love blog into a book? I did. I never ordered it because I wanted to make some editing changes but I had it into a book. Something else to finish on my long list of to-dos. (((sigh)))
I don't want my life to get away from me. When I got sick, I felt like I had wasted so much time because at that point, time was so precious to me. I don't want to be there again. I want life to be meaningful and happy. So I guess that means I can't ignore the signs, right?
1 comment:
We're always in the same boat...always.
Anyway, here's what I think:
Look at the signs, weigh them against what you believe - to see if they line up with what you believe and what God wants for you, and then you step out there. It's ok that you can't see the whole picture, but you have to start somewhere. You poste a status a long time ago asking something pertaining to what people would do if they didnt have to worry about money, etc. Or what is that thing that people would do that would make them the happiest - something like that. Dang it, I don't remember the status verbatim, but it was along those lines. I think you were suggesting that people should not waste time and go after what they really want to do. I think you should take your own advice. :-) All it takes is just a step - you dont have to leap - just a step of faith. You know that you wouldnt want to stay where you are, so you're gonna have to do SOMETHING. Cause if you do nothing, you're just gonna let more time go by why you just "think" about what you should be doing. I think you should think about what is keeping you from changing/moving/progressing, etc. Is it fear? Are you worried that it may not be what you want? What are the obstacles and where do they originate from?
Anyway, like I said - you dont have to have the whole plan put together before you actually make a move. I think it's enough to know that you are "done" with where you are now. If you're not sure if you're done - thats something to pray about. Asking God if there's something else you need to do before you move on (for me, I had to learn how to be diligent before He gave me the green light to proceed with changing plans), and if you've got the "go-ahead" then GO AHEAD! :-) You already know how important it is for you to seek Him. :-) Doors will start to open so widely that you can't avoid those "signs".
Anywhoooo....I'll send one up for you! :-) We were created to be happy and to have "life more abundantly."
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