One year, one month later...another car accident.  Really?  Yes, really.  I'm okay.  My feelings are hurt.  I feel like a fool..an idiot.  But I'm alive.  Wish I could say this didn't involve another car but I ended up rear-ending someone.  Going down Telegraph.  I saw the light turn yellow, I took my foot off the accelerator.  The car in front of me had more than enough time to make it before it turned red.  Instead, they slammed on their brakes.  Car was about 15-20 feet behind the line.  I didn't have enough time even though I slammed on my brakes.  I watched the rear end come closer and then the front hood crumpled up in front of me.  Slow motion, just like last year.  Same car that I just filled up with gas ($50).  Yeah, I was thrilled.  Got checked at ER.  No trauma this time.  But it took a while.  Discharged with a note off for the rest of the week, neck sprain, and script for pain meds.

I am eternally grateful for my in-laws who were there for me, once again.  Ever since I had cancer, they have been there in my moments of need.  Can't even explain the gratitude I feel for them.  I just truly appreciate them and love them.  I hated telling S.  He's out of the country, not just out of town.  But I couldn't not tell him.  And my mom?  Yeah, well, we'll move on.

So the meaning of all this?  Not sure...slow down??  Stop trying to do everything??  Or flip it and be just more grateful for the blessings.  Be thankful that I learn that asking for help isn't a bad thing.  And that taking the time to pray before I start driving, always helps, even in ways that don't seem like it because after all, I walked away from another accident.

I can't express to you how much I have been feeling like things were finally starting to turn around for me.  I've been hopeful and really trying to envision my future of things that I wanted to accomplish and do.  Maybe this is part of the learning curve, I have to assume that, don't I?  God doesn't put us in situations we can't handle.  I don't know how much more tragedy I can assume within my life though, but if that is what I am supposed to endure, than I must endure...and I will do it with great love and trust in Him.  Thank you, Lord, for your constant watch and protection.  I know I am not worthy and feel blessed for Your loving care.  Amen.